The loss of a loved one in our life can be crippling and leave deep scars; it changes who we are, how we look at life and how we relate with the world.
Five or six years out is still early grief but at a point where real rebuilding can begin.
In the first few years, we mechanically maintain, weep a lot and lick our wounds while clinging desperately to everything of our loved one and may in secret wish to join them.
We rejoin the real world at our own time, and it happens when it right for us.