Content Warning: This post discusses suicide desire and ideation. We believe it is such an important issue to share because of the frequency these feelings/actions happen in child loss and infertility, and it’s not spoken of enough of in our community. If you’re feeling unsafe or considering suicide, please reach out for help: see the bottom of this post or this page for resources. You matter to so many.
MAY 5TH, 2019.
I survived suicide.
Woke up this morning and thought of suicide. Nothing to see here, I’ve been thinking of it for years.
Sometimes the thought lingers as I put my feet on the floor.
But soon, I’m making my morning tea and feeding the dog breakfast, and I ask myself, is it normal to think suicide first thing in the morning?
I was a single mom in 1991 when Jacob passed away. I was 23, and he was 2.